Past Crossroads

Something’s terribly wrong with my life. Presumably a rather rhetorical question every individual poses to himself when he reaches a pregnant stagnated age…22-26 or more; where his personality shifts farther from his gimmical teens and yet he remains distant from the aura of wisdom and poise. This is the time in almost everyone’s life where we get involved into a ‘making a living’ process and leave ‘making a life’ dreams to percolate into the past; where we choose that ONE among the many options we had in our recent past which lands us up here where we are. Life seems so monotonic now once we realize how conveniently we became a small, insignificant part of the huge bureaucracy, a system which was a mundane subject of our criticism in our magical days where we felt we deserved different. We feel helpless, stagnant and particularly small in spite of the fact that the life which we have right now is what we, ourselves have chosen. A feeling of remorse creeps up everyday where we despise at our choice and ask ‘what if I were there?’
But there is no ‘there’. The greener grass at the other end is yet another illusion to sensationalize your dreams…a beautiful aversion to gravitate your remorse. The fact rests on the surface of your melancholy which we always want to subjugate.
There will not be an ending to this pain least we ourselves accept the ground reality….and also accept the fact that the world hasn’t stopped yet… There’s yet more to come, yet more to witness and yet many more options just waiting for the right time to strike. And yet again we involve ourselves in that process where we again begin to anticipate, begin to dream… Till then, the grass is still greener on the other side.

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~ by sarfarazssk on February 16, 2011.